Growing up we always had animals; dogs, cats, a rabbit, gerbils, you name it some point I probably have had it as a pet. Right now we have 2 dogs, 3 cats, 1 hedgehog, 1 gecko, 1 turtle and a million fish!! I love animals. I knew at a young age I couldn't have human babies so I guess I have always treated my furry babies like they are my own babies. I talk to them, I tickle them and have laughed and shed buckets of tears with and over them. I just don't know how to have a pet without loving them.
I know some see me as ridiculous for my attachment and frankly I don't blame them! But it goes so deep for me as I have always had a rough time really sharing my feelings, true deep down dark feelings, with humans. Whether it is due to the fear of rejection, disappointment or what I don't feel safe telling people how I really feel.
That is where my "babies" come in. My furry babies are always so happy to see me and have this innate ability to know when I am sad. This has allowed me to share with them so many things without fear.
Sometimes I feel real foolish but other times I know it is no different than a mother telling her newborn all about the world around her. (Maybe it is but don't judge me...see I would never have to ask Rudy not to judge!!)
Today I had to go see a vet about Rudy. He just isn't himself and has the lost a lot of his ability to use his back legs. The diagnosis isn't good but for now we are going to try to keep him pain free as much as possible and I will continue to carry him up the stairs, I want to do more but the diagnosis isn't good. Arthritis has set in like a stone to his back legs and he just won't be better. I feel like I am losing another one of my best friends, I love him and for some strange reason I know he loves me too.
I won't be able to see him get worse without my heart breaking over and over again. I will be his support as he has been mine these last eight years.
My furry babies give me such joy and support and I wouldn't have my life any other way!
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