Start of a new year?

2015 is going to be an interesting year, going to keep that in the front of my mind so that when things happen I can just say..."hmmmm, that's interesting!"  As I look at Rudy snoring here on the couch with me I think about how long it has been since I started the last journey of mine.   Meaning that Rudy is  the symbol I often think of when I think of Chris and I getting married.  We actually got Rudy our 2nd year of marriage and so seeing him greying I know that I too am greying and snoring through some of my own experiences. 
I want this year to be one that I can look back and not only see the good and the bad but how that I have grown emotionally through it all.  My journey won't be one that I will make alone but it will be one that I will have  to make my own decisions on how I react to the experiences and more importantly I react to those around me.  I am not an open book, I am not one who can hide my feelings and yet these two are the things that I think help protect me and my core of  who I am. 
I want adventures and yet I don't want conflicts, I want freedom and yet I want my security, I want...well, even this year I would have to admit I don't know what I really want.  My hope is a new job, my hope are amazing adventures, my hope is happiness.  Happiness will not come with things but will come with knowing that I have done my best with those around me and that I have loved much and have loved often. 
So bring it on 2015...just kidding.  Don't bring anything on, just let me experience the life that I was meant to experience with those that love me.