Lessons in Life

I am not too sure what age I am going to be when I will finally learn that life is not meant to be an easy one.  There will be people that come and go, some that will leaving lasting memories and some that will leave lasting scars.  I never know which is which until time pasts and I can clearly see what impact they had on me.  The question is what impact did I have on them?  You see we never know that one!  We may guess that we were the one wronged, the one that was hurt, the one that in the end did no wrong...but do we ever ask that person?  Do we ever try to reconcile appropriately?  And how exactly do we do that?

You see I have that question in my heart today.  My question being what steps do I take?  What if there is no reconciliation?  What if there is no turning back and that person doesn't want me back? What then?  Is it easier just to walk away?  Turn your back and not ask the question?

I don't want to be the one that leaves scars.  I want to be the one that when people think of me they think of joy and happiness with a dash of adventure.  I don't want to be the one that their only memories are of disappointment, distrust and hurt.  I am not perfect, no one is bu I do want to be one that is allowed the opportunity to ask forgiveness as well reconciliation.  I don't know that everyone deserves forgiveness, Lord knows that there are things that people do that don't deserve any kind of grace or love.  My hope and prayer is that I never do something so heinous that I would be denied reentry in someone's life. 

If I have done such a thing I can only pray that I would be given the opportunity to beg forgiveness.

You see this is a question I have asked for years...this is a question that I believe many ask but only internally.  Asking this question outwardly opens one up to hearing what we don't or what we fear will be said.

I am going to take a leap of faith and begin this year to ask what it will take to to get that reconciliation, even if it means hearing the words I don't want to hear or the words I fear the most.